Just A Boy?

I've been avoiding this topic for a while now. The reason? What if he finds this and reads it? Who is "he" you ask? Just a boy. Or is he more than that? I wish he was. I'm trying but he's so incredibly shy. I think about him all the time. I've had dreams about him too. I'm trying to figure out how to go the next step. We talk and such...We have two classes together. But I've never...never been the one to make the first move. With Kris, well he went through Katie and Gabe...Well, Gabe was just damn forward. I'll see him again on Monday. And Tuesday we're going over my short story in class. I'm excited to see what he has to say about it. I used my predicament as a model for the story I guess you could say...I just want something to happen. I really like him. I love his smile. I can picture it in my head, and I do often. Seeing him smile makes me feel good. I'm sure no one wants to hear this, so blah! I just had to get that out there, so you know what's going on!

--Octopus

Elton In Dreamy Dream Land

I feel like doing the same thing.

What's Going On

So, I've moved back in to my parents house. It's not as bad as I thought it might be. I have pretty much the whole basement to my self aside from the pooltable area. I've almost unpacked all my boxes and have gotten everything organized, and I'm only missing a few things! I need to hang up pictures and stuff; the walls look pretty bare right now. But other than that it's pretty good.
I work tonight so maybe I'll get to see Deli Rob. He's the gay guy that works in the deli that I hang out with on my breaks. We talk about his boyfriend (er, should I now say ex-boyfriend) and other various things. We went to the same highschool, so we talk about that. Even though he's a year younger than me and a few years behind me in school.
The magazine is coming out on Thursday! Whoo Hoo! I'm really excited about this one since I got to help edit it. I mean, Ben certaintly did most of it, but I put in my two cents a couple times. We're having a Coffee House as our release party on Thursday which is slowly coming together. It'll be a miricale if it goes off without a hitch though!
Well, that's all for now. I'm going to set up the rest of this here blog! Until later,
--Tracy