Just A Boy?

I've been avoiding this topic for a while now. The reason? What if he finds this and reads it? Who is "he" you ask? Just a boy. Or is he more than that? I wish he was. I'm trying but he's so incredibly shy. I think about him all the time. I've had dreams about him too. I'm trying to figure out how to go the next step. We talk and such...We have two classes together. But I've never...never been the one to make the first move. With Kris, well he went through Katie and Gabe...Well, Gabe was just damn forward. I'll see him again on Monday. And Tuesday we're going over my short story in class. I'm excited to see what he has to say about it. I used my predicament as a model for the story I guess you could say...I just want something to happen. I really like him. I love his smile. I can picture it in my head, and I do often. Seeing him smile makes me feel good. I'm sure no one wants to hear this, so blah! I just had to get that out there, so you know what's going on!

--Octopus